Monday, January 19, 2009

What's Your's is Mine and What's Mine is Mine

I am a selfish person and always have been. There have been times when I have thought that what others don't know, won't hurt them. This has been my justification for many acts of selfishness. It's going to have to change. I'm going to have to change.

Now, I'm not a bad or cruel person by any means. More times than not, I am sweet to everyone I encounter (especially when drinking). A professor of mine asked the class how many of us look a drive-thru worker in the eye when we get our food. I raised my hand because it was true. I'm always nice to people who handle my food. It's one of my mottoes.

With that said, I am in no way, shape, or form, a saint. Out of the 7 Deadly Sins these are my most frequent vices: Lust, Sloth, and Pride. The others, not so much. So, in my way of thinking, 3 out of 7 ain't bad (sorry Meatloaf). Of course, I could throw in Gluttony, but that only comes into play when I'm at a buffet (which is not often) or at a Japanese steakhouse. Oh, and Olive Garden.

I only half indulge in Pride. Although I care somewhat about the opinions of others, I do not wish ill things on anyone. I only choose to compete with myself and my own self-image is priority one. That is were the vanity part comes in. I don't strive to be better than the masses but I do strive to be better than my current self. The question is: When will I ever think I'm good enough? Probably never. I kinda hope so but then again, I kinda hope not.

It's kind of upsetting to me that Sloth is considered a deadly sin. Is it not punishment enough to be sad? However, since the interpretation of Sloth has changed a bit, it fits me a little more. I am lazy, lazy, lazy. The good news is that I'm not as bad as I used to be. I'm losing the feeling of indifference about the outside world. Of course, I'm not yet sure if this is a good thing...

That leaves us with the coup de grace. Lust. This is the one that's gonna get me, I'm afraid. That's all I will say about that. I'd rather this not turn into the longest blog in history.

No one is perfect. And thank whatever or whoever you believe in for that. And if you believe in nothing then thank the nothingness because whether or not you know it, you are worshiping it.


Star Kicker said...

Lust is definitely my downfall. For awhile I've beaten myself up over it - but now I think I'm just going to go with it. Not to the point of writing erotic novels (my parents might read them -eek!), but maybe just being a little bit more upfront about the little lustful things that make life a little more interesting.

Besides, sex is funny. And laughter is not a sin.

Anna Russell said...

Lust is great. Sort of. Well, sometimes. Others it does have a tendency to get you into trouble. But I wouldn't be without it.

Plus, where would my Pride be if nobody Lusted after me?

Anna xxx

Medusa said...

Good points! I'm not saying lust isn't fun. If it was a bore, it wouldn't have made my list. ;)
And it does make a sometimes dreary life much, much, much more interesting. Sometimes it's all the intellectual has to escape the blah.

Star Kicker, I'm with you on the erotic novel. I cringe at the thought of my parents knowing anything sexual about me. Other than them, I'm pretty open about it.

Anna Russell, I couldn't agree more about the correlation of lust and pride. I'm never one of those women who get insulted by compliments, no matter how crude.

Thanks you guys! I feel much better about my libido, now!